Random Thoughts

 Thoughts be gone

Choices made

Not always wise

Sometimes feel good

Sometimes not

Not knowing 

Not caring 

Is that wise

Sharing

To be transparent 

Exploring 

Feeling 

Being loved

To be loved

That's what matters

All of it

Done

Sometimes life throws things at you and you are not sure what happened. What actually happened is an aha moment. Suddenly you are alive and ready to live! Go do it! The best way you know how to!

If blogging were my thing I would most likely do it more often. Often I have much to say, often I have little to say. If I were to say it all, it would blow your mind! I sit here with a lot on my mind, but little at all. Where am I going with this? Actually nowhere...

Ahh. I only know what I know. I only feel what I feel. I only do what I feel is right. If what I feel is right then how can it Not be. I sometimes get lost in thought...if what I do is right then why does it feel off. Why am I not happy with my feelings. Feelings...who says what is to make you happy. I do!

Contemplating what to write. I should be writing words in my book... I need inspiration.
wind blowing  dogs barking  cars zooming by  the sounds of nature  feeling high
words coming  words going  words need to be said  to many words roaming  in my head
thoughts   thoughts  thoughts   where are my thoughts taking me
to a world of fantasy  time to write more words

      Again I am neglecting my blog. I have been down because of op surgery. It took a little more out of me then I expected. I was hoping to get some writing done while resting...didn't happen. Now with only one week left before returning to work, I may get a few lines in.
      Social media takes up too much of my time. I think it may be time to ween myself from so much time spent there, then maybe I can find more time to write.
     2015 was a depressing year for me. So much drama in my life. Drama that I didn't want to deal with and I have to say that I didn't! Now another year is upon me and I have decisions to make. Lets call it a New Year Resolution...
  

Thru the hazy fog I could see a spark, it ignited a flame in my heart. I was saddened by the thought of never seeing you again. Than thru the haze I could see you there in the horizon waiting, for what I wasn’t sure. Maybe you were observing me as I was you. Trying to understand the thoughts in my head.
But it is my heart that speaks to your soul as yours speaks to mine.
Why do you not come to me, why do you hold back? What is it that keeps you away? Why have you stayed away for so long? Can you not feel the longing, the knowing? Do you not know that I miss you?

I haven't written on here for a while. The year has been busy! I have however written more in my book. I am hoping to get somewhere with that soon! I am struggling with conflict, can't seem to come up with the right idea. I am also contemplating on adding a new charactor or at least making an existing one more dominant. :/  something has to give soon or I will never finish it!