Again I am neglecting my blog. I have been down because of op surgery. It took a little more out of me then I expected. I was hoping to get some writing done while resting...didn't happen. Now with only one week left before returning to work, I may get a few lines in.
      Social media takes up too much of my time. I think it may be time to ween myself from so much time spent there, then maybe I can find more time to write.
     2015 was a depressing year for me. So much drama in my life. Drama that I didn't want to deal with and I have to say that I didn't! Now another year is upon me and I have decisions to make. Lets call it a New Year Resolution...
  

Thru the hazy fog I could see a spark, it ignited a flame in my heart. I was saddened by the thought of never seeing you again. Than thru the haze I could see you there in the horizon waiting, for what I wasn’t sure. Maybe you were observing me as I was you. Trying to understand the thoughts in my head.
But it is my heart that speaks to your soul as yours speaks to mine.
Why do you not come to me, why do you hold back? What is it that keeps you away? Why have you stayed away for so long? Can you not feel the longing, the knowing? Do you not know that I miss you?

I haven't written on here for a while. The year has been busy! I have however written more in my book. I am hoping to get somewhere with that soon! I am struggling with conflict, can't seem to come up with the right idea. I am also contemplating on adding a new charactor or at least making an existing one more dominant. :/  something has to give soon or I will never finish it!

Sometimes we make choices that are not quite what we want. 
Sometimes we need to think before we react.
Sometimes our hearts lead us to places that our brains tell us NO don't go there.
Sometimes we fail.
Sometimes we succeed.
But mostly we just want to be loved! ___ KEM

Did you ever wonder where a writer gets their ideas? Steven King must have nightmares right! As for me... I am not sure where they come from. I just start writing and the words appear. Right out of nowhere! Seriously I haven't a clue. When I first started writing my book I had no clue what it was even going to be about. Now I get excited every time I sit down to write.It's like watching a movie in my head,, the ideas just appear. I can't wait to put it in words!

Recently I lost my Dad to Alzheimer's. I'm not sure how to deal with This. My Dad was a good provider and father to me and my brothers. It was difficult to watch him struggle with This illness, if you can even call it an illness. I watched him go from a confident smart man to a person who didn't have a clue what was going on in his own life.
If you have never known anyone with this condition, you can't even begin to imagine. My first realization was when he began to be a careless driver, then later when he forgot how to walk.  I could have easily been in denial, but I knew it would only make it harder in the end. The end... not a good choice of words. Four days before he passed away my Mom and I went to visit him. He wasn't my Dad, he was like a stranger sitting before me. I walked into the room where he prepared to eat his meals. He couldn't feed himself because his hands wouldn't work. It was r rally sad.
I fed him.
I never saw him alive again, but I'm not sad. I know that he is in a good place now, no pain, no confusion. I love my Dad! God bless!